Swimming to the Surface

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like a pebble skipping across an ocean, it was only a matter of time before you broke my surface and descended into my depths.
i kept you quickly skimming along the best i could, but the outcome of it all was inevitable. now that you’ve started sinking into my darkness, there is no turning back. the farther you travel, the more truths of mine will be exposed, and each increase in distance will further reveal the countless faults of my being. i know you deserve so much more than what lies in the crevices that define me, yet you stay around and dig continually further. i fall in love with you more complexly in every moment you search through me, but you’ll eventually reach my edges, and i wonder if you’ll quit me then. if you don’t, i will surely believe in the meaning of forever,
and know that you and i define it.

—samm payton (via somethingsoffinside)

You didn’t change, you’re not okay,
Your impulsive behavior has pushed me away,
It’s clear that your demons are here to stay,
And they’re going to continue to get in the way,
“We’re done” were the hardest words for me to say,
But this is a game that I don’t want to play,
My trust has been completely betrayed,
It’s crazy how fast sunny skies can turn gray,
My heart didn’t want to do this today,
But my head said “let go” and I had to obey

—samm payton (via somethingsoffinside)

an old poem of mine

it’s been a while since i’ve posted a picture of myself

it’s been a while since i’ve posted a picture of myself

some nights i sit, staring at my phone,
wanting it to vibrate so i feel less alone,
it never does, i’m enveloped in the silence,
outside i’m calm, but inside me there’s violence,
i ask myself “but why, why do you care,”
i answer “because i have so much to share
but no one’s around, there’s no one to hear,
it’s just me and myself, like it has been for years,”
for some reason or another, no one likes to stay,
i don’t know what it is that pushes everyone away,
i sit in the quiet with no where to go,
listening to my thoughts that race to and fro,
“they don’t know what they’re missing, you know that it’s true,
or maybe they know they’re better off without you”

—samm payton (via somethingsoffinside)

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